Archive for 二月, 2010


Feb 2010小記

To Head Goofy (who spoke to Robin Fan on the platform on 1/20)
Your words are so nice, I cannot help smiling when you talked/
What you’d said is good, my heart has gone on a blissful reverie/
When your eloquence finished its duty, I know all by my heart
that you are a complete bullshit.
(桃高人知道就好了啦! XD)
Date: 1/20

The fact is that, dear diary, I don’t expect her to change. Get it? I don’t expect her to change. She’sin her 30s or 40s and she don’t have it to be getting on. She has already stopped living, stagnated somewhere in the past. I chose to show a different courtesy because I’ve grown, and I’ve assented to this move. They might not feel a thing though, dear diary, but such difference was imbued with maturity and I would still be endeavoring on it.
From one point in my early teens, I think, I’ve given up the ultimate goal of living for myself. (It seems to me that ) it is pointless if all the effort and time I’ve given are just for personal interests…
Date: 2/7

有些道理,一開始就知道,但理解總要花好一段時間與心路歷程
─就像學生推導數學公式一樣。
Date: 2/9

寄件者 Feb 2010

(Please look at Reprise)
被一片葉子迷惑,就看不見一棵樹。
被一棵樹迷惑,就看不見一座森林。
我說,被一片森迷惑,就看不見這世界的大觀。
而被這世界所「迷惑」,就會看不見/忘記自己。
這是許學派最終的境界─忘我,我也沒聽過這樣不好的。
不過我知道:
被自己迷惑,就連一片葉子也見不著。
Date: 2/13

Valentine Speacial
Q.Why is heart shaped ?

A.
Please look at both picture, The Human Heart and Heart of Reptiles.
Human Heart
The Human Heart
Credits: How does the heart work?

heart of reptiles
Heart of Reptiles
Credits: Britainica Encyclopedia
(For more information about animal circulatory system, please visit this site:
http://mathphysicschemistrybiology.com/circ.html)

The human heart looks rather like an uneven meatball while the reptilian(and amphibian) heart looks more heart-shaped. The difference occurs because the latter has 2 relatively enlarged ventricles, which make the apex of the heart protrude a bit more thus coming up with such shape.
The idea of the heart-shape may be early researches on the cardiac system, which was possibly mainly done on reptiles and amphilbants. And once this pattern has caught on commercialized products, there’s no way correcting that this heart-shape is nothing close to the one on Homo sapiens, us.
Well, although it is quite interesting to think about, I’m not going to guarantee that it’ll be a good topic between you and your girlfriend. And do mind not to talk about this origin especially when you get a gift with such a one-of-a-kind symbol.^^
Written on Date: 2/16

Andy McKee – Rylynn


Andy McKee – Rylynn

Please Visit Andy McKee’s site:

http://www.andymckee.com/releases/

He is so incredible.
Before I saw his videos on Youtube, I had always seen guitar as an instrument with limits of some sort. (Like they normally need some backing-ups… like vocals, special effects in tunes, et al) But his music gave me a feeling that it is something that comes really straight out of the heart, like an emotion, a thought or a cruise somewhere. And it is all in the music. It is happy music.
Here I make a rough intro of him and all of his works (or so I’ve heard) could be found on YouTube, and I hope you’ll enjoy them.

Writing my first paper

目前我正在寫我的第一篇小論文
突然感觸良多

2007年秋天,我通過了篩選進入了中央研究院的高中生物人才培訓計畫
沉浸(indulgence)在這新領域和舊雨新知的狂喜(euphoria)中,高一那一年過的特別快。那時看見優秀的學長姐在IBO和ISEF的卓越表現都能夠認為:「我也能做到。」但是這個自信沒有後援,也沒有可以指導我的人出現。一個人盲目地摸索,尋不著法門。

高二進了第一間實驗室,是生化所梁老師的,以研究蛋白質、酵素主動力學為主。比照那時進入的輕而易舉,日後在累積經驗的學習險的艱難。尤其,最大的阻力,恐怕是我不成熟的心理與人際關係。就算是在半封閉的實驗室中,人際之間的溝通和協調依然重要。至隔年春天,算是做了一個完整的project。不令人意外的,我所測試的東西是無法有效的以所希望的方式作用的。在那裡,我學會了gene–>protein purification的流程和相關作業。

2009年二月,我進入了同樣是生化所的史教授的實驗室,以研究細菌的細胞骨架和細胞分裂機制為主。在那裡的實驗流程主要以高倍率的光學顯微鏡影像紀錄,原本以為會比較簡單,但最後卻發現在採樣數目和條件上有相當高的標準,那是我當時無法達到的。在那裡我學到一個指導教授的個性對於整個實驗的影響力,以及科學的嚴謹程度。由於我不夠格,所以原本想拿去參加科展的題材頓時泡湯,也不能夠繼續了。技術方面:Growth Curve製作, Induction不同因子的測試, 顯微鏡與周邊設備的操作和Volocity軟體的應用。

但是,這回我已經高三了。
IBO沒玩到,因為我發現那不是我喜歡生物的方式。(“Seems like there’s a lot you’d learnt, so what? What can you do with such knowledge? Trying to prove that it is true and it is of great usage for the next few decades?")
ISEF也不可能玩到了。

現在的感覺是被打回原形,如同一般的高中在大學入門考試中力爭上游的feel。雖然我的功課從來沒有廢過,卻僅在第五名左右徘徊。要去我心中理想的學系?
好啦,學測一考完我不就開始在準備、在規劃、在實踐了嗎?目標事像小葛格那麼強,然後去一個旁邊有山的醫學大學讀醫學系,以後就做醫師後研究吧!

我想以前中研班的的北一女溫良班的同學和建中三類的同學恐怕有一半就在學測上了X大的醫學系了吧?同時還會有一個頭上早就頂著一個IBO金牌國手的光輝,幾個有ISEF國手的頭銜了吧? 你們真的好強,不過我們都有自己的路。或許日後再相會吧。

讀過的paper也不少,但真正下筆的時候卻有諸多困難。一整個早上僅僅整理到Literature Review。不曉得會不會有人對我的Material and Method有意見。但我也只能盡力囉!

請大家祝我順利畢業吧!

Jan 2010小記

當你看見一片葉子時,你就看不見一棵樹。
當你看見一棵樹時,你就看不見一座森林。
–浪人劍客 1/5

[309動作篇- Ving]
呂睿庭–>Rating
黃誼庭–>Eating
祁婷嘉–>Cheating

以上,以上,的動作與該人很不相干。
Rating是我遇見最不會政治、比較的人之一了。
Eating也不愛多吃東西。
Cheating我根本沒聽說過這回事呢! 他們人都超好。

開始喜歡上男生的小女孩
就再也不可愛了
1/6

Tacit Rose! Tacit!
1/7

Dearest Kyle, if I ever fell in love with a guy skinnier than me
I’m going to cry for the rest of my life, thank you!

1/8

所有的品牌應若無印良品!
—>Brand Uniqueness
1/17

未曾被馴服過的馬會比曾被馴服過的馬還要難以馴服。

對於未知的事物,就算出現在眼前也是看不見的。
就如同北美印地安人在目睹第一艘西班牙船艦自東方駛來時,
只是覺得那是形狀奇怪的「浪」而已。
–>雖然I don’t suffer fools gladly,
但是動這一點到是要有認知的。不然我會很難過。

今天早晨的天空像金絲絨
雲朵神聖地鑲嵌在上
1/20

我不願意多花一刻在對我不重要的人、事上。
我只願意去照亮我所愛的人。

榖不熟為饑,簌不熟為饉,心不熟為愚。

若人都被加諸於相同的標準那人應該由工廠製造。

What others think about you is none of your business.
–Old Saying
1/23

群眾是殘忍的,但個人是善良的。
–Tagore

Some people are ignorant, therefore they are arrogant.

Would you dare to break such blissfulness?

To Those Who Mean Nothing To Me:
My insouciance is my best gratification to your pursuit of ignorance.
12/15/2009~01/27/2010

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